I’ll Be Gone In The Dark – Book Review

Hiding in the shadows amidst the dark corners, where the absence of light shrouds a mysterious figure, a patient man awaits his defenseless victims. A woman goes about her routine, shutting off all the lights in the house without the slightest indication that someone is watching her…from inside her home. The mysterious figure, also known as the Golden State Killer, awaits in anticipation without the slightest movement. He’s not only contemplating his actions towards the victim, but the fear and mind-games he’s ready to “play”. His victims later recount in interviews and interrogations with the police several post-attack phone calls from the Golden State Killer; he asks, “remember when we played?” 

The known crimes committed by the Golden State Killer began in 1974 and continued through 1986; over 100 burglaries, more than 50 rapes, 13 murders along with several kidnappings. Thanks to advancements in DNA profiling, Joseph James DeAngelo (a.k.a. The Golden State Killer) was arrested by the authorities on April 24th, 2018; the charges currently include murder. DeAngelo’s arrest was partly due to the growing awareness and interest in the Golden State Killer crimes within the last 10 years. Part of the growing awareness is due to true crime author, Michelle McNamara, for her dedication and extensive research into the GSK. McNamara, also known as the wife of famed comedic actor Patton Oswalt, was a pioneer in the search of a killer who was believed too impossible to capture, especially after 30 years. In McNamara’s book, I’ll Be Gone In The Dark, she chronicles the series of murders through a sequence of interviews, newspaper articles, and notes she’s compiled throughout years of research.

McNamara’s extensive research into the GSK slowly reveals the unseen killer by recounting his twelve year crime spree. Throughout McNamara’s interviews with detectives, she unveils the traumatic events through the words of victims accounts in explicit detail. These crucial events were essential in pinpointing certain characteristics about the GSK and placing together a cohesive pattern in his activities, with hopes of understanding the killer’s modus operandi. The victim’s narratives recounting their experience with the GSK was truly horrifying.
I’ll Be Gone In The Dark is the posthumous work of McNamara which was published on February 27th, 2018. Michelle McNamara had passed away two years prior to her book’s publication with nearly two-thirds of its completion. Her husband, Patton Oswald, along with crime writer Paul Haynes and investigative journalist Billy Jensen, helped complete McNamara’s novel by utilizing her notes and recordings. I’ll Be Gone In The Dark is a truly terrifying account of a killer’s actions and the destruction he left behind. Each of the victim’s portrayal and experiences with the GSK became more unnerving with every turn of the page. I often found myself constantly checking my locks and windows every night. McNamara’s novel is highly recommended for it’s engaging narrative, consistency in pace, and all around its effectiveness in creating unease.

I’m Thinking Of Ending Things – Book Review

I’m Thinking of Ending Things – Book Review

Originally posted: March, 2018

This unsettling journey leaves quite a few lingering questions in this psychological, philosophical, thriller. I initially came across I’m Thinking of Ending Things, by Lain Reid, through a horror podcast, Shock Waves Podcast, by Blumhouse. The novel’s title lends itself to a variety of interpretations. My immediate take, and perhaps the most obvious, was the ending of a relationship. This personal resolve of “ending things” is the central plot, initiated by our unnamed narrator, as the reader may refer to as the “girlfriend”. The opening paragraph outlines her intentions with ending things, stating “It lingers. It dominates. There’s not much I can do about it. Trust me.”

I found myself in a leery state of mind as I read the novel. With an unreliable narrator (told in the first-person), the “girlfriend” not only keeps others, as well as readers, in the dark, and she is not entirely honest with herself as well. I’m Thinking of Ending Things takes readers on a road trip with our narrator and her boyfriend, Jake, through rural American country roads with the intent of meeting his parents. The further we advance along this trip, the more we learn of the narrator’s terrifying past.

“Sometimes a thought is closer to truth, to reality, than an action. You can say anything, you can do anything, but you can’t fake a thought.” 

The narrative is told in threefold; the present time in which we examine the current state of all characters in the plot, the past which explores terrifying events throughout the narrator’s life, and finally, minor portions of dialogue describing a mysterious murder scene are scattered throughout the story. Reid’s use of dialogue really made this an enjoyable read. As the novel delves into several themes of philosophy and the human psyche, I found it easy to follow even in the midst of so much information. As the mysteries of the novel begin to unfold, the lingering question of why things should come to an end is never quite answered. 

“Just tell your story. Pretty much all memory is fiction and heavily edited. So just keep going.” 

My natural inclination to resolve the ending well before the last page led me to several avenues. Although I won’t spoil it for anyone (yet), Reid’s novel kept me engaged up until the very end; regardless of whether or not I’d figured it out beforehand. The surrealism adds to the mysterious quality of I’m Thinking of Ending Things. In a way, it reminds me of The Twilight Zone

*Minor Spoiler Ahead*At the story’s conclusion, we are still left with lingering questions, as noted earlier. Plagued with several red herrings, the novel never quite reaches full circle on a few issues; rather they seem to be conveniently swept “under the rug” as the conclusion unfolds. Although I very much enjoyed this book, keep in mind, it may require a second read-through. The novel is thought-provoking and original, but it carries a hint of James Mangold’s 2003 film, Identity. That’s not a bad thing. It merely puts things into perspective once the denouement draws to a close. I’m Thinking of Ending Things is a read I’d recommend due to its ability to engage, captivate, frighten, and most important, Reid is such a gifted writer. His use of stream-of-consciousness kept me inside the narrator’s head; I knew what she knew, and found myself surprised when she was. I hope you find this work to be as satisfying as I have. Thanks for reading.